playing tag with the dead
by Brigid McCarthy
i was a fairy! once!
i promise. dust in my blood, cells clotting
in sparkles and
bones groaning like
ancient clayworks
coming to life.
i would dance on the monkey bars ob-
livious to
the spirits of Lutheran love spotting my back
feeling vaguely like
my grandfather's strong hands;
a familiar yet absent kind of comfort.
we lost him so young.
it's eleven pm and
i see my childhood
reflecting
off of streetlights
and
illuminated
by my imagination
as i bike past where i attended kindergarten,
the church behind the Dairy Queen.
why did i never see the cemetery
next to the playground?
i understand now
that
the world is so full of people,
it gushes them
like my ancient blood
when it falls down.
i was a fairy! once!
i promise. dust in my blood, cells clotting
in sparkles and
bones groaning like
ancient clayworks
coming to life.
i would dance on the monkey bars ob-
livious to
the spirits of Lutheran love spotting my back
feeling vaguely like
my grandfather's strong hands;
a familiar yet absent kind of comfort.
we lost him so young.
it's eleven pm and
i see my childhood
reflecting
off of streetlights
and
illuminated
by my imagination
as i bike past where i attended kindergarten,
the church behind the Dairy Queen.
why did i never see the cemetery
next to the playground?
i understand now
that
the world is so full of people,
it gushes them
like my ancient blood
when it falls down.
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